Something invisible

“There’s something invisible between us that keep bond us together”

I said that to her when we’re in a deep trouble over a year ago. and now that “Something” is showing up once again. I have face those lability problems in these 5 months, and I always try to overcome them. and most of them are conquered by myself. and last night probably the most “Visible” of the “Something” that keep bond me and her. I dreamt about her. She doesn’t look happy in my dream, she look sad, and the I approach her, then I hug her, but she’s hug me even harder.

and then in my dream I open my FB account and open her FB page which is I am not strong enough to open it. that’s what I feared the most cuz if I open it I’m afraid I couldn’t get her outta my head. and so on in my dream I open her FB page, I saw her status update isn’t hapy at all.

And I awake by that, then I realize I can’t control my breath, my heart’s pounding all over me. and I did something that I’ve never done in these 5 months. I open her FB page. And you know what? She’s sick, She’s been sick and she’s pushing herself. I don’t know how it happen but one thing for sure, she’s way too tired. As far as I know she’s tired by her school, and other thing I don’t know. I’m starting to think “How come there’s no one who care about her who realize that she’s been pushin herself these time? Why nobody would realize that?”



I don’t know why, suddenly I just startled, shock and realize that I was the one who held a mistake. Then I ask a lot of question to myself.

“Why I didn’t strong enough for her that time?”

“Why I’m not tryin’ to be there when she needs an attention?”

“Why I left her all alone?”

and there’s more.

If last night I wasn’t dream about her, maybe I don’t even know she’s been sick. Oh my God, if this is a sign for me that she’s been thinking about me as I thinking about her, please give me a way back to her heart..

I Will be right for her..

I am unconditionally hers..

Amen..